the end is the beginning

Have you ever been pulled from class to go sit in a closet and take a hearing test? The whole setup was all in like, a suitcase, with these big headphones. You put them on and it began with all these electronic tones and you were told to close your eyes and listen to the sounds and let them know when you see the red dot.  See  the red dot? How am I supposed to see a sou- Oh. There it was. I heard a sound and it instantly made me see a red dot in my mind. I had forgotten all about the red dot hearing test.  I did remember trying to guess what shapes were on the backs of cards.  I had forgotten about listening to the scenarios either on tape, or read by a person, and then I got to predict what might happen next when the story suddenly stopped.  Why were the windows of the gifted room papered over with brown paper? Even when we were in a portable they didn't want us to see in or out. A sensory deprivation chamber of sorts.  Why did we play SO MUCH Oregon Trail...

We already have like three inches of snow here and it's supposed to snow until the early evening. I collected a small sample in a cleaned out medicine bottle, and it was obvious there were particles of something in it when it melted. So I placed a larger container outside and will post the pictures of the results when that jar melts. Unfortunately I don't have any previous experiences of snow samples to compare this with. But I certainly wouldn't be making snow cream with anything that has particles in it.   Someone from Naples, Florida took samples from the fog on January 1, and it tested for Serratia marcescens, which is a bacteria that is resistant to antibiotics. How fun! It can cause a variety of awesome ailments, such as UTIs, respiratory infections, pneumonia, wound and blood infections, and much, much more. There's something for everyone here at The Fog! Serratia marcescens is also the  pink mold  that sometimes grows in showers and toilets. So the fog contai...

I have felt so sleep-hungry over this past week. Even when I wake up I am tired and I have been taking hour long naps each afternoon. I feel like I just can't get enough. Kind of like every direction is sucking my life force and I am constantly having to sleep to recharge. It's not generally this bad. I don't remember any of my dreams from last night other than standing in front of a huge window with a couple people I didn't recognize. One older man points and says, "Look! The fog is coming in and then it's over."  I use the term 'worried' very loosely when I say I am worried about what is going on with this fog in conjunction to whatever is in this snow/will be released when the snow melts. Everyone is sick right now with all sorts of different things. I know I sound like a broken record or an annoying parrot....they are poisoning us......they are poisoning us. But really, they are poisoning us.  A withering. They are shriveling up what makes us h...

*Article on magnetic swarming technology ( smart dust ) from last month. It's real. It exists. You are breathing it in right now. We are now in the final countdown. *History does repeat itself, and we've had issues with  toxic fog  in the past. *Friday night I was outside feeding the cat and as I walked back inside it was almost like something was beckoning for me to turn around. I looked over my shoulder and saw a bright light that seemed to be moving, so I turned around and walked back towards the end of my driveway to get a better look. The closer I got the more obvious it was that it was moving (they always remind me of Kirby's victory dance) so I ran back inside and got Peppy. He had seen one last week, and while I know he believes me and believes what he saw, I know he second guesses himself because his brain works more logically than on intuition. So here you go, here's what I've been seeing in the sky since August. In 20 short seconds I think you might see w...

Ok. This is megaphone time. This affects everyone unless you are a true bubble boy/girl.  So, so, so....this fog. It is everywhere and it is really not normal. When Peppy was grilling the week before Christmas it was still warm, close to 60 degrees. It had been sunny and then suddenly this low fog appeared out of nowhere, and it was so thick, almost like a fog machine at a haunted house. I commented to Peppy how odd the fog looked, and that's when I realized I could see my breath, which I shouldn't be able to do at 58 degrees. I did not see any particles like people are claiming, but if you do, PLEASE DO NOT TOUCH IT. I mean, that seems obvious, but people are touching the clumps with their bare hands, and you really shouldn't. There's actually an episode of Unsolved Mysteries on Netflix right now (I think) where a woman gets sick and dies after mysterious goo turns up on her farm after a storm. I am a really curious person too, but please, do not touch unknown, foreign...

Went to dinner last night and while we were waiting on our table we went to a Barnes and Noble that is next door. I understand that retail has taken a nosedive over the last few years, and that even 15 years ago I was surprised B&N was still trucking when other retailers began to close their doors. But I was still shocked to see the state of this store last night, because these are usually tidy and well kept stores. It looked like it hadn't been vacuumed in weeks. There was trash and junk piled everywhere. There was visible dust all over the shelves, and this misspelling on the 50% off sign. IN. A. BOOKSTORE. I know I've been saying for years that we were watching a societal collapse in real time, but dang, when I remove myself from being fascinated by it all, it absolutely grieves my soul to see it all playing out.  It is this same surreal feeling that I get whenever we drive through the little run down towns outside of the cities all over America. They are all the same. W...

*In an Indian village dying  chickens  seem to be breathing fire. * Peru's coastline  is experiencing tsunami-like waves only a day after declaring national emergency due to an oil spill.  *Only two people out of 181 survive a South Korean  flight . I think this is the fifth plane crash this week. *People are talking about the weird fog . I think it was Tuesday night the week before Christmas. I only remember the night because Peppy was grilling. I came outside and we both remarked on the weird fog. It was so thick and when I spoke you could see my breath like it was cold, but it was 58 degrees. The next day Peppy had three or four nosebleeds and Gage has had a sore throat with coughing ever since that night.  *Elon Musk's  alt x account  was recently uncovered, where he posed as a person named Adrian in order to defend himself. Elon truly has the biggest backpfeifengesicht, a German word that literally means 'a face begging for a slap.' *Baby...

My phone sent me a nice reminder that we moved into our house four years ago. This was also my reminder that I've been living in this new reality for four years. Four years. Four years. Four years. Sometimes it feels like four days. So much was stolen from me, but I really haven't gotten down about that in months. Maybe I will have a brief moment when I am confused and frustrated, but I really have been practicing the idea of flinging a little monster off my shoulder when the self-absorbed 'woe is me' thoughts try to linger in. Plus, being out of the house five days a week has been really good for me.  When I think about what was taken from me, I think about how many are so much worse off. I am one person out of what, eight or nine billion? Some people longhauling have literally no family around, and many are bedbound. One of our newest volunteers told me recently that his wife hasn't been the same since she had covid. This is the closest I've met to one of me i...

I'm reading in Micah at the moment. Trying to finish up these prophets before the end of the year. Even though this will be the 13th time I've read the entire bible (the real Neverending Story,) there is always something new popping out to me. The more I learn about ancient history and what the people at the time believed, the more these prophets make sense and the story comes alive right before my eyes in ways that it hasn't before. "Enlarge your baldness like an eagle, for they shall go from you into captivity." Micah 1:16 Bald eagle, huh? Aren't those native to North America? (I only just learned two days ago that the bald eagle was NEVER our national bird. Isn't that crazy?) Let me do a Google.  Why yes, but then why would these bald eagles be in Israel and Assyria?  Most scarabs (especially the Rainbow Scarab that is usually featured in Egyptian artifacts) are native to North America as well. Only the typical 'black beetle' types are native t...