the end is the beginning

*Strange  black blob  appears yet again near Antarctica.  *Did something other than an eclipse happen on April 8th? American Horror Story: AI, coming soon to real life near you. This definitely made my brain jump back to my two moons dream.   *One in five samples of pasteurized milk tested positive for  bird flu . *Virtual  priest  believes it is real and claims it can forgive sins.  *Study shows that  forever chemicals  can be absorbed through our skin.  *Archaeologists uncover 1800 year old statue of a  reptilian deity . * Tornadoes  cause massive destruction in central America.  * Tornado  touches down in Chinese metropolis, which was already dealing with massive flooding.  *All over Asia people are dealing with  extreme heat . *Major cities in Mexico are running out of  water  due to extreme temperatures.  *'Berserk' preacher spittin' some truth about how blasphemous the  Tr...

I have a title. I am the client resource manager. I also am getting business cards, which seems a bit much, and I definitely do not want to hand out my cell number to people I don't know. Not because I worry about people having my number, because I won't hear/see it ringing in real time anyway. I just don't want my personal number to be anyone's emergency number outside of my family, because my phone is always on silent and if you need an immediate response...I am NOT the person. I also believe that our personal cellphones should not be integrated into our jobs. There needs to be a separation there.  You are not your job. Thank you, Tyler Durden.  You are not your cellphone either. I am actually excited about this, because I believe good things are going to happen from these changes that have been made at the food bank. We have a director that is actually a go-getter and stays true to the promises she makes, and I know she is going to support me. Plus it is really nice...

*Blood covered runaway  horses  invade the streets of London.  *Nearly 50 surviving attendees of Israel's Nova Music Festival have committed  suicide  since the October 7th attack. *PM of PNG takes offense to Biden claiming his uncle was eaten by  cannibals . * Prime energy drink  is being sued because it supposedly contains 3x the amount of forever chemicals that your body can handle...in a lifetime.   * IQs  are beginning to drop for the first time ever. Wow, huge surprise there. Baby an entire civilization of people and get them used to instant gratification and a pocket device that can think for them. Mix in a pandemic that destroys social and emotional skills. Next, add in a vaccine/virus that results in chemical lobotomy, and Voila! We're stupid! *Bird flu, it's not just for the  birds . *A rare  leafhopper insect  has done over one billion dollars in potential damages to this year's corn crops in Argentina. *The wor...

This headline right here. 2024 clown world in a nutshell.  Peppy was watching the Masters last weekend and I was sitting on the couch with him, reading about the war between Lemuria and Atlantis when breaking news about the Iran drones came on. I just sat there wondering what the point of that was. It was like a child trying to trick someone, and yet explaining the trick to them before it happens.  I don't know. It is all carefully calculated for some reason, so I know what is shown to the public is all intentional. But that one was odd for me. I guess to add more confusion and fear. People are concerned about the potential start of Word War 3, and President Biden tweets his presidential reaction.  Does this not seem like one big movie to anyone else?  This last week I have had the biggest crash I've had in a long time. I have literally felt like someone has sucked all physical energy out of me. If I am sitting, I don't even realize anything is wrong, but the moment...

In the book of Jasher (that is referenced three times in the canon we have been given- Joshua 10:13, 2 Samuel 1:18, 2 Timothy 3:8) it gives a more in-depth account of the book of Genesis. I was reading about when Moses was born and Pharoah had commanded all the Hebrew baby boys be killed.  "And the king ordered a proclamation to be issued and a law to be made throughout the land of Egypt, saying, Every male child born to the Hebrews from this day forward shall be thrown into the water. And Pharaoh called unto all his servants, saying, Go now and seek throughout the land of Goshen where the children of Israel are, and see that every son born to the Hebrews shall be cast into the river, but every daughter you shall let live.  And when the children of Israel heard this thing which Pharaoh had commanded, to cast their male children into the river, some of the people separated from their wives and others adhered to them. And from that day forward, when the time of delivery arrived ...

I saw something the other day with my name and age, and it honestly took me more than it should have to realize that yes, I am 39 years old. I stopped caring about my age years ago, but I didn't think I would truly forget how old I was. I'm pretty sure I thought I was 37 or 38. Not even that big of a difference. I'm about to be 40. How does that feel to you, Deanna? You are a middle-aged person. Nothing. I feel nothing about it. There used to be so much that I actively hated about this meat sack that I live in. And now? I'm just grateful for the parts that still work and function correctly.  Something weird might be going on in  South Africa . Yesterday I was watching a live satellite image that looked like something big and warm was making 80 foot waves off the south west coast of Africa. It was this massive black blob, sending waves in all directions. And now people are claiming there is 5 hours of footage missing on the live webcams. They took out the entire portion ...

*NASA spots an  object  speeding around the moon. I saw a video last night of someone seeing a tic tac shaped object in the clouds around the eclipse. I went to find it this morning after seeing the post about NASA, but surprise, surprise "hmmm....this page doesn't exist. try something else." Wonder why.  Oh yeah, I know why... *I found this  post , but the one I originally saw yesterday was actually a video of this black oval tic tac thing flying in and out of the clouds and lots of people screaming out, "What is that!?" *Zombie  cicadas  with sexually transmitted fungus will be emerging soon. Half their bodies rot off and is replaced by fungus. Fun! *Satellite imagery shows that the northern California  kelp forests  have collapsed.  *People claim their eyes are boiling after staring at the  eclipse . I did happen to look up from a car window and saw a slice of the eclipse with my naked eyes. It was actually an accident because it was ...

"I am a stranger in the earth, hide not your commandments from me." Psalm 119:19 Psalm 119 is long. Very, very long. One hundred and seventy-six verses to be precise. This particular Psalm is separated by different letters of the Hebrew alphabet, and the letters can have specific meanings for the verses that accompany them.  Under the portion for Teth (the ninth letter of the alphabet that is a bit of a paradox because it has a dual meaning of both good and evil) there is a verse that speaks to my very spirit and soul. Psalm 119:71 "It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I might learn your statutes." I can see the duality in that verse. Most people wouldn't think it would be fantastic to be afflicted.  Before COVID ate my brain, I was a "Jesus person." I knew the old Deanna had been buried and was a new creation. Everything about me had changed. I had been born again for six years and I was a spirit filled person who daily prayed for truth....

I am not in a bad mood or a bad mental place at the moment. In fact, if we are being honest, I feel pretty good, and the inner person is in a goofy mood that makes me laugh at everything. These are my favorite days. And I try to savor them and hold on to them and try to remember and remind myself when I am having days that feel like wading through slime just to get basic crap done, that yes, I can still have my new version of good days too.  Sometimes when I am in a bad spot all I seem to focus on is how I lack the ability to feel joy. I miss that. I miss that so much. You never realize just how wonderful a little heart squeeze of happiness is until your body is legitimately incapable of doing that. Melancholia? Well, hardy har har. For some reason the overlords who created this virus/vaccine thought it would be absolutely hilarious to keep the heart-brain connection working with that particular emotion. Fortunately for me (you stupid overlords) I have 40 years of having melancholi...

This map is a cropped portion of the last three months of earthquakes in the US, and the picture below is a storm line from last month where 16,000 lightning strikes occurred in a single hour, spanning 1200 miles all the way from New York to Texas, or....right down the April eclipse path of totality. I don't know man, but this is getting weird and if I lived on that line I think I'd be doing a whole bunch of soul searching if I hadn't already. I prefer to be more of a spirit-monger than a fear-monger. I want people to want to know God, but right now, it's getting real, and it really and truly feels to me that this is the last ditch effort to get anyone's attention that does not completely have their head in the sand. Say goodbye to the illusion of America we were taught existed, because nature is about to overthrow this place and I think we are being given neon glowing warning signs. I promise you I'm not a doomer, I'm a realist. And it's getting real.  ...

I was mentally singing Sound of Silence in the shower, and I started to think about this neon god they sing about, and how it reminded me of the golden calf that the Israelites had Aaron make while Moses was on the mountain talking to God. That made me think about how vacca is Latin for cow. So instead of waiting on the Lord, the people have prayed to the neon (luciferase) vacca they made. The Sound of SCIENCE Bing, you finally done me good. I didn't even ask for this and it looks like a motherboard. This is quite an unholy cow. Ah, the mere musing of a lunatic that knows how to make fun of herself. But what is a lunatic, really? Someone who recognizes patterns and sees things months before anyone else. A few days ago I was telling Peppy that some people have gifts and talents that are recognizable, like art or music. I have always been ok  at the arts, but honestly, my gift is knowing and understanding things that other people cannot seem to see. It's always been this way. Pep...

Weekend with G-pap was uneventful and quick, which is how I like it. I have given a lot of thought to my struggle with hospitality lately, and I really and truly feel like (aside from feeling weird to have a new creature all up in my routine) I think I have a lot of CPTSD about house guests. We grew up having to have our rooms look like museums. We were not allowed to sit on our beds and everything had to be pristine. But that is just not who I am. This is by far the cleanest house that I have ever maintained, but I have two teenagers and two inside pets. It is not sparkling. Anyway, I feel like deep down I feel like house guests make you turn into a character and be performative, which is exhausting. At least that is how I felt as a child, and clearly it has carried over into my adult life. I have no problem throwing parties where people leave after a couple hours, but having guests spend continuous nights is something I have to pray a lot about, because it really is does not come nat...