the end is the beginning

My family has been gone since Wednesday night. Because of my short-term memory problems that first 36 hours I kept forgetting they weren't here. It was kind of an odd feeling.  Yesterday I binge watched the entire season of KAOS on Netflix. I went into it knowing it was not up for a renewal for season 2 and I have no clue why. Maybe because some of the jokes probably go right over your head if you don't have a basic grasp on Greek mythology. Maybe their target audience was a little more niche than they realized. If you knew a lot about Greek mythology, the dialogue was really funny.  When Dionysus came out with a shirt that had a Baphomet print on the back, I knew I was in for a good time and I was glad I was able to shout at the TV without anyone else here. I really hope they change their mind about a second season. And if they don't, well there sure have been a lot of shows about empires falling and worlds ending lately.  There was a line about distractions, about how Z...

Let your yes be yes, and your no be no. Remember that you don't have to explain your answers to anyone. If you set a boundary and someone chooses to ignore it, you DO NOT have to engage in their questions. To overstep a boundary because you think you deserve anything from anyone is a manipulative and obnoxious behavior.  "I said no/ I said I can't" are suitable answers. Some of us have been conditioned that we have to explain all our answers in depth, or that if someone pushes back on a boundary we are not allowed to stand firm. If you tell an adult 'no' and they can't accept that, it doesn't say anything about you. But it does say everything about them.  If you say 'no' and a narcissist in your life tries to guilt you, don't let them. Do not let that energy vampire receive anything but a calm response from you.  Don't let a narcissist control your emotions. When you can recognize the mind games they are playing you can more easily rem...

6:10 am, eating a piece of pumpkin pie with whipped cream, because sometimes this is how you need to start your day. Pecan pie is another acceptable alternative. Yesterday was our first day of the turkey and Thanksgiving bags giveaway. Owsley and I got to the food bank right at 8 this morning, and we had clients already lined up in front of the building. We don't open until 9, and some had been there for almost an hour already. To put some things in perspective for you, on a normal busy day we typically serve around 25-30 families. Last year on Thanksgiving week we did 80 on both Monday and Tuesday and 40 on Wednesday. Yesterday, in less than two hours, we served 111 families. We even had to stop the line at around 10:45 because we ran out of turkeys and hams. That was definitely a record for us. I love Thanksgiving and Christmas week at the food bank. We don't do any financial assistance those weeks, just food, and so many extra people come in to help out each day. There's...

I've been reading in Jeremiah this past week and I found so many parallels between ancient Israel and modern day America. Israel was chosen by God, but America believes (in great deception) that we are God's favorite child. For some obscene reason some people believe America replaced Israel, which is a complete fallacy. There is zero scriptural evidence for this. I ask myself, "Have they prayed about this, or are leaning on their own understanding?" We claim so strongly that we are a country founded on the principles of the true God (which is a HUGE lie)....and yet no one wants to follow them. Everyone chooses to walk in their own way, and because of the constant barrage of songs and media being blasted at us, our thoughts are evil continuously, even without us realizing. We are unconsciously always singing some song or saying something in anger under our breath. We are cursing our lives and the lives of those around us without even realizing it. Mumbling, muttering a...

Here's our new predictive Economist cover. This year's graphic definitely has a more harsh and dirty feel to it. Are we going to be nuked soon? Maybe. There is a definite possibility and it would be absolutely horrible. Living after a nuke is not a choose-your-own-adventure path I would want to take. Zombies either. But none of this is in my control, nor does my opinion amount to anything at all, and it doesn't do any good to worry about things you cannot change at all.  Last night was Taco Tuesday, like most Tuesday nights around here, and I was grating up some BOGO Cabot Habanero cheese. I think things that are half off taste twice as good. Anyway, Flaming Lips Flight Test has been stuck in my head for days. I'm not even a huge Flaming Lips fan. Most of their stuff sounds remarkably the same to me. Maybe a few different sound effects in the background. I'm sure the use of LSD would make their music pop a little more, but I am clearly moving away from my point.  ...

*When ol' lord Goat Testicle announces the new world order, it must finally be so, but since it's already on the dollar bill I'd assume it's been underway for a long time already. * Ballet star who criticized Putin dies after falling from a building. For the future-I did not push myself off a balcony. *Second rare  "doomsday fish"  washes ashore in California.  *Russia begins mass production of nuclear-resistant mobile  bomb shelters . *FDA gives the green light for Gates funded self-amplifying  bird flu vaccine . Unless this is going to make me a bird, so I can fly far, far away, I'm not interested in this. And even then, I suppose if God had wanted me to have wings I would have been born with them.  *If you're a baby carrot eater, there's a current  e. coli  outbreak. * KKK papers have been found scattered all over northern Indiana.  * Masked group with swastika flags march through the streets of an Ohio neighborhood. * Iraq to lower th...

Yesterday was Owsley's fourteenth birthday. I've been asked before if I miss my kids being younger. Well, I am incapable of that now, because what is right in front of me is the only thing that is real to me. I will say that it is an interesting feeling to be the mother of two teenagers in men sized bodies. I love my kids where they are now. It is actually a bit of a gift to only be able to live in the now. I often can't even force my brain to compare the now to the before. No real waxing of the nostalgia over here. Comparison is the thief of joy anyway.  Owsley wanted a Kay May apple fritter for breakfast, and once they are out for the day, they are out, so we left as soon as everyone was awake. Unfortunately sometime during the night Peppy had pulled his back out. This happens to him maybe once or twice a year. Always the same spot, and always makes for a few miserable days for him. Owsley made this one. He says it is Squidward.  I was really surprised Gage went with us t...

The test begins nowowowwowow...... Well if that's not an end times speech, I don't know what is. Too bad we don't agree on who the 'Jews' are. Really, if you haven't heard this, you should. It's only a minute and a half. Trump and his gang are absolutely NUTS. (And evil.) Just a thought...isn't Trump's bestie, Elon Musk, the exact type of immigrant that Trump is trying to deport? He came here saying he was going to attend school, which he never did, and then he never left. He's been here almost 30 years. Also, some of Trump's cabinet picks are such troll jobs. It is hard to take any of this seriously when America has become the equivalent of a WWE smackdown.  And we all know how fake wrestling is. Oh, sports, everything is rigged. I told Peppy and the kids last night at dinner that Jake Paul was going to win the fight after six rounds. Turns out it was eight. I didn't watch any of that garbage, but when you know, you know. I'm not pl...

*Mysterious sticky  blobs wash up on the shores of Sydney.  * UFOs  appear in the sky above Spain right before flash flood hits. *First artwork by humanoid  AI  sells for over $1 million. *Racists  text messages  are being spammed to Black college students all across America. *'Did Joe Biden drop out' was a trending  Google search  on November 5th, suggesting that many Americans didn't know he wasn't running. I mean, he did break up with us via Twitter. *On November 6th some  Americans  were exposed for not even know the election had already happened. I mentioned that I forgot it was voting day as well. Like how for some reason I just stopped thinking about Trump being an antichrist, even though I was absolutely certain of this back in the RV. What else have I forgotten that I knew before? This is what the nonstop accumulation of soft metals and a chemical lobotomy will do to a nation. We'd get angry and uprise.....but they kind of...

I have been seeing a lot of r/unethicallifeprotips being pushed on me, and that is not a sub I follow.  Whenever certain things that I don't normally follow begin to be heavily pushed on me, I have to ask myself why. There are multiple posts of people who are claiming to have Hispanic neighbors/coworkers who support Trump who also have illegal family members living with them. The posters want tips on how to deport them. Even if this is not an organic post and was AI generated (because who even knows anymore) now this seed has been planted in other people's minds.  These posts have thousands of comments, and most of them are pretty positive and include some detailed responses and tips on how to get people deported. Here's your war, people. Maybe no one was worried about a rebellion forming after Harris' loss, but the people really do like thinking they are making a difference via the computer screen.  Remember MAGAtts, " He was despised and rejected by mankind, a ma...

He's got that rizz like Hitler. He's got that ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh that rizz like Hitler. "Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall." -Proverbs 16:18 "Whenever people say "peace and security," then sudden destruction will come upon them, like the birth pangs of a pregnant woman, and they will not escape." -1 Thessalonians 5:3 I know it doesn't matter who ever wins an election because the president is just a mouth piece to whoever is pulling the strings around here, but I guess I have a hard time understanding how such a large majority of people would vote for an obviously corrupt and evil human. The people who are screaming "SAVE THE BABIES!" seem to fail to understand Trump's personal involvement with Epstein. What about the children here? Are we saving the babies so they can be trafficked and molested later on?  I just cannot wrap my head around anyone who claims to love the true God and the true Christ a...

I forgot today was election day. It is a surreal feeling to me to see some of my peers still believing this is real. I understand why the boomer generation might still be sucked into the propaganda, but to see people my age still drinking the political Kool-aid is a little weird (to me.) I am sure I am a little weird to most everyone.  Last week I was telling Lincoln that taking a nap in the car is like magic. One minute you're here, the next minute you're halfway to your destination. Yesterday we drove home from our Kings Island trip and the minute we hit the interstate I was out. I kind of feel bad for Peppy, because every single trip it is like, "Adios! See you when we get home."  I didn't take many pictures at Kings Island. It was a little more crowded than the crowd calendar had predicted- Sunday was definitely NOT only 10% full, more like 50%, but we never waited more than 45 minutes for anything, and most things were just around a 15-20 minute wait. We ende...

We've been staying in an Airbnb in Ohio since Friday. It was built in the 1930s and still contains some of that charm, from the squeaks and creaks in the floor, to the super weird sounds coming from the pipes and heating systems. Personally, I love it. I think that if I lived here, the nonstop creaking stairs would eventually drive me crazy, but for a short stay, it is endearing.  I love those French doors. All of the doors are such thick, heavy wood that you just don't see in new builds anymore. Even more proof that nothing is as sturdy as it used to be. This house has super thick walls too. The first night at Kings Island Gage and I took an Uber home at 10:30 because Owsley wanted to get in line for his last ride at midnight, and well, we did not. Peppy was afraid we would wake up when they came back and showered, but neither of us heard anything. Old houses also come with that eerie charm of being potentially haunted. Now, I don't believe in BOO! type of ghosts where you...