the end is the beginning

*In an Indian village dying  chickens  seem to be breathing fire. * Peru's coastline  is experiencing tsunami-like waves only a day after declaring national emergency due to an oil spill.  *Only two people out of 181 survive a South Korean  flight . I think this is the fifth plane crash this week. *People are talking about the weird fog . I think it was Tuesday night the week before Christmas. I only remember the night because Peppy was grilling. I came outside and we both remarked on the weird fog. It was so thick and when I spoke you could see my breath like it was cold, but it was 58 degrees. The next day Peppy had three or four nosebleeds and Gage has had a sore throat with coughing ever since that night.  *Elon Musk's  alt x account  was recently uncovered, where he posed as a person named Adrian in order to defend himself. Elon truly has the biggest backpfeifengesicht, a German word that literally means 'a face begging for a slap.' *Baby...

My phone sent me a nice reminder that we moved into our house four years ago. This was also my reminder that I've been living in this new reality for four years. Four years. Four years. Four years. Sometimes it feels like four days. So much was stolen from me, but I really haven't gotten down about that in months. Maybe I will have a brief moment when I am confused and frustrated, but I really have been practicing the idea of flinging a little monster off my shoulder when the self-absorbed 'woe is me' thoughts try to linger in. Plus, being out of the house five days a week has been really good for me.  When I think about what was taken from me, I think about how many are so much worse off. I am one person out of what, eight or nine billion? Some people longhauling have literally no family around, and many are bedbound. One of our newest volunteers told me recently that his wife hasn't been the same since she had covid. This is the closest I've met to one of me i...

I'm reading in Micah at the moment. Trying to finish up these prophets before the end of the year. Even though this will be the 13th time I've read the entire bible (the real Neverending Story,) there is always something new popping out to me. The more I learn about ancient history and what the people at the time believed, the more these prophets make sense and the story comes alive right before my eyes in ways that it hasn't before. "Enlarge your baldness like an eagle, for they shall go from you into captivity." Micah 1:16 Bald eagle, huh? Aren't those native to North America? (I only just learned two days ago that the bald eagle was NEVER our national bird. Isn't that crazy?) Let me do a Google.  Why yes, but then why would these bald eagles be in Israel and Assyria?  Most scarabs (especially the Rainbow Scarab that is usually featured in Egyptian artifacts) are native to North America as well. Only the typical 'black beetle' types are native t...

Yesterday morning at 7 I get a call from our food manager that someone had had a seizure and crashed into our wall as well as the fire hydrant across the street. The guy that called me was unable to get into the building because he only had a front door key, and the front door was currently jammed and unable to open from either side. Plus he couldn't tell about any possible structural damage and didn't want the storefront to come crashing in on him if he forcefully shoved on the door. Understandable. We still opened but we had to completely operate from the side door, which was very inconvenient. Construction people came yesterday to look everything over and they temporarily put up a wood panel until they can do something permanent next week. Our insurance agent was afraid a homeless person might try to squeeze in and get crushed. She said her brain operates in the worst case scenario, but it was a legitimate concern. We can open the front door now, but we're going to have ...

Friday night was the annual cookie decorating party. This was not a tradition growing up. This is only something my mom started after Gage was born. Although we did dye eggs every year, and that's probably one of the most idiotic and worthless things ever, in my opinion. Every year I am reminded of my favorite year of this tradition, the time Owsley got stuck to a sticky rat trap. This was the year my dad wore the unicorn mask and the kids rode around on his back to terrorize the dog. Also the same year that Owsley took a chip clip and decapitated a handful of the members of my mom's Christmas village people. Those are the moments I look back on and fondly cherish in my heart. The destruction of Christmas and consumerism. That's my boy! Although in the end I'm sure this just meant my mom bought more Christmas village people.  Not this kind of Christmas Village People. I'm talking about the little cement caroling guys who's production serves absolutely no purpose...

In the 'Christmas story,' the (unnumbered amount of) wise men followed the star all the way to the house Jesus and Mary were in. But when you think about it, stars don't move in a way that would directly point out anyone's home as they traveled all the way from the east. So I'm here to theorize, maybe the Christmas star was actually the Christmas drone. Or at least that is what government officials would say if they modernized the story. According to the account related to the screenshot above , when the one drone fell, ten more arrived hovering above. Something is actually happening. I mean, I knew it would, but still it is a bit surreal to acknowledge what insanity is about to be thrown at us. It feels like we are being set up because there is no way that the folks in charge have no clue what is going on. There is no way. They know. I've been seeing a lot of comments of people saying stuff like, "This shows how we have no control over the air space."...

While I think the entire medical industry is a huge scam, I am absolutely appalled at (the internets) full support of the murder of the UnitedHealth guy. I have never seen anything like this. I wake up one morning and the whole of humanity would probably agree murder is bad. By that same afternoon, the idea of the little guy murdering the folks at the top seems to be something that people are ok with. Cheering it on, in fact. Now there are 'wanted' posters for healthcare executives popping up all over New York City. Obviously public shaming is nothing new, but we have become feral and even if these posters were placed by some plant with an agenda, all it takes is one of these feral, chemically lobotomized people to jump on that idea. Millions of people with years of trauma just needing an outlet. Point them in the right direction, because many are ready to shoot despite the consequence. And their thoughts were evil continuously.  But don't worry, I'm sure this generatio...

*Vatican to open five sacred  portals . *Mystery  disease  has killed over 100 in the Congo in just two months.  *Lawsuit claims  Jay-Z  raped a child at a party.  J Lo  might have been a witness to the whole thing. *Suspicious New Jersey  drones  supposedly come from an Iranian offshore mothership. This drone thing is getting pretty exciting, because it is obvious they are not all the same thing. Some are drones, yes. Some are helicopters, and some...are something else. *The house released a  500 page document  that admitted everything about covid that conspiracy theorists theorized four years ago is true. But now we've reached a mental point where we cannot care or do anything about the fact that we've all been mutated.   *Jamie Foxx admits that he doesn't' remember 20 days after he had his  stroke . Probably because they were replacing him and sometimes it takes the consciousness a bit longer to adjust. In his...

Please tell me y'all heard about the Vatican live-streaming opening St. Peter's tomb on Christmas Eve, complete with masonic chanting? Yesterday was the first that I heard of it. I guess it is about time for fake Jesus to wake up for his birthday party. You all that are still celebrating Christmas as the birth of our Savior, oof, I am praying for you every single morning (as well as the Trumper christians). Wake up and quit playing along with this dumpster fire plotline they have given us. The Creator absolutely abhors it. Even if you think you are doing it with good intentions. Stop leaning on your own understanding. If you don't believe me, take the time to ask him, and then shut up and wait for the answer.  Don't you want the truth? Don't you want what is real? It is a lot better than the lies they have given us.  I was listening to this video last night while I was cooking dinner and it was talking about cosmic horror, and the narrator said, "What is more t...

I've been hanging out in the Nag Hammadi online library lately, scouring gnostic texts. I was reading something a few days ago that I cannot stop thinking about. It is in reference to the creation of earth, and the water being separated from the water.  Sooooooo.......a long, long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away, Sophia wanted to create something, but in her excitement she didn't want to wait on her consort and instead attempted to create on her own. Considering she attempted creation without her other half, her creation was half-formed, so she shoved it away into a thick cloud of fog. But her creation was looming in that fog, slowly become aware of itself. She separates the water above from the water below and hovers over the water. The water below begins to become conscious of itself and sees only itself, and believing it is the only thing to exist, it becomes an arrogant prideful thing. But as long as it stays under the water it's ignorance is subdued. But that's...

About a month ago I read  The Testaments of the Twelve Patriarchs , which are the final 'speeches' each of the namesakes of the twelve tribes of Israel give to their families before they die. This is absolutely fascinating because they delve into each brother's personality and as aged men they all look back and grieve on their mistakes. It has a big emphasis on all the things we consider psychological as actually spiritual.  I have come to the conclusion that our thoughts are a lot like the angel and the devil on opposite shoulders, whispering conflicting information into our ears. When I have a fleeting thought that has control to ruin my day, I consciously remind myself where that thought could be coming from. And then, here's the fun part, I pantomime flicking or flinging that devil off my shoulder and I imagine hurling something negative into the abyss. Oldest son, Reuben, who raped his mother's handmaid/father's wife, details how our senses are actually spi...

"Whatever such signs mean, God alone knows. Although we have seen, shortly one after another, many kinds of signs on the heaven, which are sent to us by the almighty God, to bring us to repentance, we still are, unfortunately, so ungrateful that we despise such high signs and miracles of God. Or we speak of them with ridicule and discard them to the wind, in order that God may send us a frightening punishment on account of our ungratefulness." 1561 Nuremberg HEY EVERYONE! PAY ATTENTION TO HUNTER BIDEN'S PARDON AND PLEASE DO NOT LOOK UP AT THE SKIES. Give your absolute attention to this artificial simulation made of actors and psychological manipulations tactics used to keep you distracted and enslaved. Whatever you do, do not look up at anything that is actually real.  Seriously. Either Project Bluebeam is well underway or something is here. It's not drones. It's never been drones. It is all out in front of you to see. I've seen all the things that are posted ...