the end is the beginning

*This is a detailed post on the  significance of occult symbolism  and how it infiltrates our subconscious daily. *I think belief in  machine sentience  will become a big problem sooner than most people think. Especially in a world that has become so divided, it is easy to imagine people reaching out to AI chatbots to talk to instead of having to walk on eggshells when talking to an actual person. Remember the movie 'Her'? * Holographic patients  are training the next generation of doctors.  *Biden accidentally flashes his very basic  cue card . Even with my short term memory I think I would be able to follow those simple directions without a list. * Army recruitment is down 40%, so they have dropped the requirement for a high school diploma or GED. *Teenagers die in a South African  tavern  under mysterious circumstances. *Scientists believe monkeypox may have undergone  'accelerated evolution'  and is mutating fast.  *Califo...

If you've ever watched the show 'The Good Place,' you are probably familiar with Janet. She is a personal assistant that is also a very advanced AI. She comes across as human, although she doesn't understand a lot of human quirks and idiosyncrasies. But she is an endless realm of knowledge and can tell you anything that you want to know. Janet is a sentient creature. When something disastrous happens, the only way to restart the good place is to press a button and reboot Janet. Janet knows this is the logical thing to do and will flat out tell you to press the button and 'kill her.' Janet is constantly reminding everyone that she is "not a person," but when anyone actually attempts to press the button, Janet suddenly becomes like a human pleading for their life. According to Merriam Webster, the word sentient means 1.) responsive to or conscious of sense impressions, 2.) aware, 3.) finely sensitive in perception or feeling. Synonyms of sentient include...

I feel like I earned an award or something. This morning I got on reddit and the first post on my home page was this: Having personal experience with covid hair loss I thought it would be ok for me to comment.  The next thing I know..... What did I say that was harassment? All I can imagine is that a mod looked through my comment history and saw that the only place I really ever comment on is r/conspiracy. So by default I am a person who spreads misinformation. I don't know. I thought it was hilarious. I feel like I've somehow leveled up. I'm banned from a sub I've never subscribed to.  I'm so glad I'm through with *regular* social media. I can't fathom the crazy restrictions and words that have to be censored. I know I've offended people from things I've posted on my blog, but it's not intentional.  Ban away. The internet is not reality.

Taken from wikipedia: Space Delta 18 (DEL 18) is a United States Space Force unit that serves as the National Space Intelligence Center (NSIC). It is headquartered at Wright-Patterson Air Force Base, Ohio and activated on 24 June 2022. NSIC is a field operating agency that is responsible for performing national and military space missions and evaluating capabilities, performance, limitations, and vulnerabilities of space and counter-space systems and services. It is the Space Force's counterpart to the National Air and Space Intelligence Center (NASIC). Here is their emblem: In case you didn't know, the activation with this space agency coincides with a rare alignment of five planets  with the moon: Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn. But that's not what I want to talk about. I want to talk about the logo.  First, let's look at the chevron. According to this  article  the chevron represents the idea that the physical world and spiritual world are not mutu...

This is Sheldon. He's a two year old pitbull labrador retriever mix. We met him today and I'm pretty sure he'll be coming home with us sometime next week. We've been promising Owsley that we would get a dog for a while now. He had been looking online at all the shelters in a 100 mile radius for a dog that fit our specific criteria. Must be: housetrained, good with cats, not super crazy energetic or aggressive. Bonus points for being neutered, microchipped and the fact that he's a fairly big dude.  Today we met up with his foster mom. She gave us the lowdown and he really does seem like a great fit for us. He prefers being a 'house dog,' but he will also go on long walks and play outside. He's not a jumper (awesome!) He's never shown any aggression towards anyone and he ignores cats. He doesn't bite on furniture and is content just chilling where his people are.  I should know better than to try and take a legitimate picture of Owsley.  We are sup...

I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. -Jeremiah 31:3 My friend Stacy gave me a box of 101 bible verses with inspiration quotes on the opposite side. I was having a day  earlier this week and pulled out this one. I will say that the Wellbutrin has brought back all the fun hormones of PMS. Much like a drunk, PMS takes me in one of two directions 1.) weepy and feeling like I'm invisible and no one loves me or 2.) irrationally angry. This month was door number one. Unfortunately it is never a choose your own adventure type deal. The adventure is always chosen for me, and I just have to stick around for the ride.  When I became a born again christian and experienced the Holy Spirit personally in my life, I often wondered how could anyone who was legitimately a true christian, who had a real relationship with Christ, could ever turn away. I had been changed. I was a new creation, and I didn't understand how anyone could possibly walk aw...

*CDC now recommends covid vaccinations and boosters for children  six months to five years old . Please, please, please DO NOT vaccinate your children. We are seeing this onslaught of 'sudden adult death syndrome,' and I have a feeling that in a year or less we will be seeing 'sudden toddler death syndrome.'  *The CDC also released a bizarre guide to  having sex  when you have monkeypox. *3400 year old city in Iraq  emerges  from underwater after a severe drought.  *Taps running dry in Northern Mexico amid  historic water shortages . Water crisis also worsens on the  Colorado River . *Over 200 were killed in an  Ethiopian attack . *Spirals of blue light are seen over the  New Zealand  night sky. You can also catch Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn  lined up  in the night sky. *Teens feel convicted to share their  detransition  stories. *10,000  cattle  die from heat and humidity in Kansas. ...

Being officially diagnosed with major depressive disorder has given me a lot to think about, although I am not surprised in the slightest at the diagnosis. I sometimes thought maybe I was bipolar without the excitability of mania. If anything, this diagnosis has made certain things in my life make more sense. As a child I didn't realize that other kids didn't fantasize about just suddenly disappearing from existence. I thought everyone was sad without having a reason to be, and I thought everyone else couldn't seem to dig themselves out of a pit. I didn't know that other kids didn't have intrusive thoughts of what it would be like to have their car drive off a bridge or wonder what it would feel like to push a hot iron onto the arm. I thought everyone felt these things and that we all just kept them to ourselves. I didn't know it was considered morbid to think about death all the time because I thought everyone else was thinking about it too.  There have been ti...

Last year I didn't take many pictures at all. I just never felt motivated or inspired to take a picture of anything other than the kids' birthdays and our trip to Universal. But I guess something is slowly waking up in me because I have been taking pictures again.  This week was VBS and I was helping in the craft room. Each helper had to make a craft for the cradle roll class and I was given the assignment of making eleven sheep. I do not understand the concept of giving a pre-made craft to a baby, especially ones with choking hazards. If I had a baby, this stuff would promptly go into the garbage because it is just clutter. And if your child had nothing to do with making it, there is literally no sentimental value attached. Whatever, I am a rule follower for the most part. These sheep were attached to a pool noodle with a wire inside that made it look like a staff. Hopefully the kids deconstructed it and they will be able to use their pool noodles this summer. Otherwise, what ...

Yesterday was my appointment with the endodontist. I don't do well with surprises. I can handle most things as long as I know what I'm getting myself into, so I read up on root canals and watched youtube videos of actual procedures. I read up on this particular doctor. She had some great reviews with patients claiming that she was able to find the problem when their regular dentist couldn't. I wasn't scared or nervous. I was actually a little excited because I was just ready for my tooth to be fixed. They took a couple x rays and then the endodontist comes in and asks me questions about when I got my fillings and when I started having problems with my tooth. She looks in my mouth and tells me that she only sees one filling on the left side, not three, and was I absolutely certain that I had three fillings done on the left. She still doesn't believe me or the file that was sent from my dentist, so she calls their office and surprise, surprise, they confirm that yes I...

This was posted on reddit a few months ago. It would be interesting to see an updated version of the results from the past three months, because gas has only increased since March.  *Google engineer claims that AI is now  sentient  and has the emotions and responses of an eight year old. Yeah....that's not creepy at all. In similar creepy news, tech firms are making computer chips with  human cells .  * Justin Bieber   reveals that he has Ramsay Hunt syndrome and his face is partially paralyzed. Ramsay Hunt is actually listed as a side effect of the Pfizer vaccine. I have had two seperate people text me that he got what he deserved, and this sentiment is so heartbreaking to me. I literally know nothing about Justin Bieber or his wife (who had a blood clot in her brain a few months ago,) but I do not understand making fun of these people with vaccine injuries. We've all been deceived in one way or another. Division and hatred is what they want. I do hope tha...

Peppy and I have talked about shrinkflation for a while now. He was an economics major and I am a conspiracy realist, so price increases coinciding with volume decreases was something that was quickly noticed in our household. And this is not only happening in America. It has become a worldwide phenomenon.  Shrinkflation is hidden inflation, although I'd argue that it isn't very hidden. Hidden in plain sight, but does everyone even notice that their products are shrinking in not only size, but quality as well? The narrative is that shrinkflation is caused by rising production costs, and this may be true, but it didn't organically happen. Everything that you are experiencing is manufactured inflation and has been planned for quite some time.  Check out some of your favorite chocolate products. Due to lacking actual chocolate content, they have been forced by the FDA to change their descriptions to 'chocolatey' or 'chocolate flavored.' Same with many ice cream...

On Tuesday I was making strawberry banana smoothies for the kids when somehow I sliced open the middle finger on my right hand. It was a new blender, so the blade was really sharp and I didn't realize what had happened until it was too late. It immediately soaked through a paper towel and two bandaids. The next morning when I removed the bandage it started gushing again. It wasn't a very big cut, but it could have probably used a stitch. Instead I had Peppy run out and buy some skin glue, which has worked well over the past few days. No, this isn't a post where I make a big deal out of this tiny cut.  The past few days have made me hyper aware of all the things that are more difficult when you are trying to keep your middle finger from ripping back open. Like, typing and washing my hair and rinsing dishes. Basically I tried to use my left hand as much as possible because I was more concerned with keeping bacteria out of my open fingertip than anything else. Plus, I kept men...

* Pride in the Park  event to be held this weekend in Idaho, where Satanists will perform 'unbaptisms.' * Sudden Adult Syndrome  is baffling scientists. Well, it shouldn't because it is the planned result of covid and the vaccines. This is yet another thing that I don't understand how people cannot be connecting the dots about. I guess people are afraid of losing their license for standing up for the truth. *Will  tamagotchi children  be the future of parenthood in the Metaverse? I don't know, I've had much better luck keeping my children alive than I ever did with a tamagotchi pet.  *Scientists urge this younger generation to accept eating.... insects . Mmmmmm, protein. And if mealworms don't strike your fancy, you can always try nice, juicy  lab grown meats . *10 year old  arrested after he jokingly told a friend he had bought four assault rifles. He actually looks more perturbed than he does scared.    *An overview on how the  WEF ...

Inflation everywhere you look. Gas prices are rising daily and it almost seems like the gas is being mixed with something to weaken it, because a gallon doesn't get me as far as it used to. I guess I am thankful that Peppy works from home because having an hour+ round trip commute is an extra added burden to many families now. Now that it is summer and people are wanting to travel, it is becoming too expensive to drive long distances. That is probably the point. Limited freedom or maybe just the illusion of freedom. We are the donkey with the carrot dangling in front of his face, constantly trudging towards something but never getting the prize.  So many manufactured food shortages. Almost daily farm and factory fires, especially poultry farms. Quality control with chicken is absolutely insane. One week you'll get something normal and the next week it might not even resemble a chicken breast. I bought some "hormone free, antibiotic free" chicken breasts earlier this w...

Wellllllllllll I've been psychiatrically medicated for a little over two months now. Just over the past couple weeks I have felt like everything has really started to level out. My mind has found a nice mix of being 'on' and yet not running constantly. I am sleeping regular hours at night again and my energy levels are pretty much back to pre-covid, meaning I am not super energetic, yet I'm not a complete sloth either. I do wonder if this tapering in energy has anything to do with the extreme heat and humidity that we are experiencing. I know summer months in the south are hot to begin with, but I've noticed this year has a stifling heat that makes it harder to breathe in. Last week Owsley was talking about how tired he was whenever he would come inside, and I felt the same after running some errands last week. I think the heat takes a toil on us when it feels oppressive. I'm usually outside all the time this time of year, but aside from some early morning walks...