the end is the beginning

I took the kids to Dave and Busters for half price Wednesday. We had noticed last time we were there that you can cash out your tickets for food in their restaurant. We enjoy playing the games but as far as prizes go, sometimes Owsley will get something for himself or one of his cousins and Gage occasionally gets candy. For the most part the prizes have remained the same the last few years, so we've just been collecting points. Owsley is so good at the crane games and there are a few cranes where you can win rings of tickets, and he often wins thousands at a time that way. Sometimes multiple times. With their 'tastes for tickets' deal you were able to trade out between 1600-2200 tickets for an appetizer, entree or dessert.  Owsley got a chicken cobb salad, Gage got a flatbread, and I had voodoo pasta. It was all really good and tasted even better because it felt like it was free. We still have thousands of tickets left and they have both decided that they want to try everyt...

*Lord of the goats and chief twit, Elon Musk, says that four days ago the first human test subject has been implanted with Telepathy, his  neuralink  brain chip. I hope this works out better than it did with the monkeys.  Can we just stop for a moment and acknowledge that a massive troll, who really is probably nowhere near as intelligent as he wants people to think, and was a Baphomet warrior on Halloween, who's mother is a witch and his ex-girlfriend Grimes is... something, is introducing mind control technology to the world? This man who's ideas and inventions never turn out to be what he promises. In casual conversation I'd definitely say this sounds like an abomination that desolates the temple of the Lord.  * Asteroid the size of 64 Canadian geese (oddly specific) will pass by earth today. Alright, lets see if Canada was a clue and based on the Book of Miracles lets see if something catastrophic happens in Canada over the next few days.  *New virus-like ...

The Book of Miracles has been really interesting so far. It contains eyewitness stories, with multiple witnesses of the same events, of things that I've never heard of before. It has also really opened my eyes to how pre-modern people would see an abnormal comet or meteor in the sky, or one that seemed to return every x amount of years, and they knew something bad was going to happen. Now we see random sky anomalies and they are explained away in the name of science. Maybe we should be paying attention to see if something bad follows shortly after. But then again, it seems like bad things constantly happen, so would you even be able to pinpoint it? I mean, someone is paying attention. It reminds me of the J.P. Morgan quote, "Millionaires don't need astrologers, but billionaires do." Many of these supposed eye-witness events are exact descriptions of things John wrote about in the book of Revelation. I imagine there have always been people like me documenting life. May...

I had to share this text because I thought it was hilarious and very true. They actually reminded me more of a firefighter. I just needed some suspenders. I bought the pants. Since I don't generally dress in the same color from head to toe hopefully I won't pull be pulling off the EMT look. Cargo pants....taking me back to 1998. Now I just need some unbuttoned flannels with tank tops underneath. I also bought a banana type clip for my hair that I never could have used before because my hair was too thick. Now I can use a banana clip and it's like, "Invite all your friends! There's room to spare!" I think I maybe mentioned last year during my first neurologist appointment that I was so impressed with the phlebotomist when he drew my blood. I have freezing and rolling veins, and it is always a painstaking process to have my blood drawn, even though it doesn't hurt. It just gets a bit nauseating when someone has a needle under your skin and is rotating it aro...

This is me yesterday when I realized I have a neurologist appointment the next morning at 9 am, an hour away, and it is going to be pouring all day long. You can literally see the joy in my eyes. I cancelled my last appointment because we were all sick. I called back once and tried to reschedule, but they were on lunch break, so I thought to myself, "nah, nothing has changed. I'll just wait for the next appointment." Well, here I am. Four months later. Still, nothing has changed, but I do realize that I will have to be on this trigeminal neuralgia medication until the day I die, so I cannot completely ghost the neurologist.  I 100% have pathological demand avoidance. PDA. I hate one form of PDA, I have another form of the other. I saw this term for the first time a couple months ago, and very similarly to when I read about rejection sensitivity disorder, I was blown away at how much I matched these symptoms, especially when I tried to answer some of the questions from the...

Oh wow. This week has been like one long, continuous day. Due to the snow and ice, everything was shut down all week long. There was nowhere to go and nothing to do. Admittedly, I am one of the most introverted and antisocial people that I know, but even I was missing people, especially since Peppy wasn't here for a couple days. Not having a routine has made everything blur together and right now there are no days of the week. I think it is Friday, but it has felt like Friday for a few days now. It is easy to see how someone could quickly get disoriented with time if they were stranded somewhere.  I have cleaned my house and all of my cabinets, and sorted through some stuff in the closet. Our garbage can is overflowing because the garbage truck didn't run this week and won't come until Tuesday. I started watching a four hour documentary on the Dark Ages because the comments talked about how compelling and thought provoking it was. I made it a little over an hour and gave up...

*Remember, the  WEF  is currently meeting to discuss when and how to release  Disease X . *China is told to stop doing tests on this potential  Disease X  that has a 100% fatality rate. *Magnitude 5.7  earthquake  hits Columbia. *Tesla owners stuck as temperatures are too cold to charge their  EVs . *Tesla's are  crashing  more than gas cars.  *Animal-to-human  transplants  have failed for decades. Maybe there's a reason for that? So now genetically modified (more human-like) animal organs are being used instead. * Meta  document states that over 100,000 children are sexually harassed on it's platforms daily. *Texans are asked to limit the use of appliances during the cold so that they don't overwhelm the  grid . *Half of  Russia  is dealing with heating, water and power outages.  *Google and Bing put non-consensual deepfake  porn  at the top of search results. I saw a headline the other ...

Yesterday was my 18th wedding anniversary. It is an odd sensation to have all the memories of 18 years of marriage but no emotional attachment, because I can remember that  I used to be a very emotional person.  I had woken up in the middle of the night really nauseous because of where I had trigeminal neuralgia flaring up on the top of my head. This was my first flare up since the Thanksgiving from hell, and it was only a fraction of how it was six weeks ago. Earlier I had been trying to put together a grocery list for winter storm '24 and I had been forced to take an extra portion of my medicine. I am fine on 1/4 of a pill, but if I take half of one my brain is empty. I am coherent, but don't expect much participation from my end. I hear you and comprehend what you're saying, but expect blank stares from me, and if you ask me a question you will definitely get a "huh?" I hope and pray that I never have to go up in my dose because having a vegetable brain is not ...

I have been thinking about the Mandela Effect a lot lately. Wondering what the point of it is, because it is most definitely a real thing going on. There are a few MEs that I could go either way on, like was it Chic-fil-a/Chik-fil-a previously, or has it always been Chick-fil-a? To me, I thought it was Chik-fil-a, because cows can't spell, and 'chic' would have been more like 'sheek-fil-a', but now everywhere says Chick-fil-a.  The one that I have no doubt in my mind about is that Shazam was a genie movie with Sinbad in it. I understand why he might want to deny ever making that move in his career, but what's done is done, and that was a real movie released on VHS in the 90s. I saw this movie so many times. When the superhero Shazam movie came out a few years ago I remember immediately thinking, "Why in the world are they remaking that Sinbad movie?" I have noticed many new things given names of older things, so that if you go to search for the older v...

I woke up this morning thinking about how in all of the stories in scripture about people coming back from the dead, Christ is always like, "now give them something to eat." That seems to be his catch phrase. That, and "tell no one I did this." After he is resurrected he appears to his disciples on the beach, "Anyone hungry? I'm cooking us some breakfast over here." Paraphrase obviously. I am wondering if food is something that roots us back to this earth? And then if we think about all the crap in our food today (not to mention secretly added mRNA in our food,) what does that ground us to? Aside from intermittent fasting, which I pretty much do every day more or less for the last eight years, I have never truly fasted. Definitely not in a spiritual way, but I remember how crisp my mind felt after I initially started a daily 16:8 fast. I felt so much better not eating breakfast every day. No matter what I ate, I would have a crash a few hours after bre...

2024 is starting with a bang! Only eleven days into the new year and we have potential shadow creature/aliens in Miami, *proof*  that Trump is part of the swamp (although I sincerely question the discernment of anyone that still believes in that guy,) and secret tunnels in synagogues that seem to contain stained crib mattresses and highchairs. A man was walking his dog and saw this Jewish man pop up out of a sewer grate, look around, and then scamper back down. What is going on down there?! Someone came up with the hashtag #ninjewturtles and it is the best thing I've heard all week. The tunnels are connected to a  children's museum  which adds a whole other layer to this story.  Japan also had a terrible earthquake and Sweden tells their citizens to be ready for war any day. Apparently Lil Nas X got accepted to Liberty University and will begin school in the Fall with a dual concentration in Christian Leadership and Biblical Studies. For the record I believe this is ...

* Trump shares message of how God sent him to save the world.  *New mapping shows the sea is filled with  dark vessels *Elusive  alligator-like creature  found in the treetops of Mexico. Only one week into 2024 and we have tree alligators. Didn't have this on my bingo card. *'God of Darkness'  asteroid  is set to pass by earth in 2029. *Synthetically-generated genomically targeted plagues will be the future of  warfare . *Hidden temple of pagan cult dating back to  Constantine  might prove that the Roman Empire wasn't as merged with Christianity as history would want us to believe. *A list of some of the worst  natural disasters of 2023. *Are the terms 'brother' and 'sister' becoming too  inclusive ? * Alaska Airlines  grounds their 737 after a window detached midflight.  *Man found dead inside of a plane  engine  at an airport. *In five years nearly half of human skills could be replaced by  AI . *They ar...

Every once in a while I hear a new theory that is so wild (even to me) that it takes a moment for me to even begin to process the idea. And then of course my brain starts filling in information that I already knew and suddenly I am questioning things I never even considered before. I decided a couple years ago that I couldn't really believe any history that we'd been told, especially any over the last 200 years. I questioned whether or not many of the big names in history were even real people, or maybe a collaboration of more than one person. Like Shakespeare, I believe he was a collaborative effort. I've questioned if maybe people have been swapped out or replaced. You can draw a portrait or take a picture and slap anyone's name under it. You can have someone behind the scenes making all the moves and just have a decoy person play the part.  And so yesterday, when I first read "Adolf Hitler was a black man" I had to stop for a second and think about what I k...

I asked you a question. I didn't need you to reply, "is it getting heavy?" But then I realized, is it getting heavy? Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be.  I am back in the new testament and I was reading where Jesus begins calling his apostles, and they all drop what they are doing and immediately follow him. Why? Because his sheep know his voice. I cannot explain it, but there was something about Christ that they immediately knew him to be true, even if they didn't quite understand everything. They could tell this man was different.  “Very truly I tell you Pharisees, anyone who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber. The one who enters by the gate is the shepherd of the sheep. The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because t...

Well my relaxing dip into zero responsibilities ended yesterday with our new director calling me and asking questions about some things. I am excited to go back to the food bank, but because I am still in charge of the scheduling, I am not excited to have to be back to looking at my phone every morning and feeling a twinge of anxiety every time I see the blue light flashing. Always hoping and praying that it is not someone with a main position that is calling out at the very last minute. Unfortunately that is generally the messages I get at 6:30 am.  Yesterday I pulled up a blog post from 2013 about my hatred and distrust for smartphones, and absolutely nothing has changed in my opinion about them. I still believe that while they might have good tools about them, as a whole smartphones have ruined humanity in just over ten years. I maintain that I would only miss the camera, because I like sending pictures in real time. If I don't do it then, I never will. Sometimes Owsley wil...

2024- The year I will turn 40, and inside I still feel like such a child. Another year gone, yet not a year revolving around the sun, because the sun and moon come out of their storehouses every single day to glide over the un-moving dome we live under. So, whoooo!! Another 365 days of the sun and moon gliding over us! Doesn't have the same ring to it, doesn't it? Since our calendars have been changed, the official start of a new year wouldn't be until March anyway. I have often wondered why a new year wouldn't start with the spring and a rebirth. Turns out it actually should. I fell asleep watching a movie with Peppy last night and when the movie was over I just went to bed at 9:30. I have no shame. When you wake up at 4 am I think 9 pm is a pretty reasonable time to go to bed. I think it's probably been at least ten years since Peppy and I stayed up on New Year's Eve anyway. We did rock the charcuterie board again last night though, and I can at least stay awa...