the end is the beginning

I have been reading the book of Adam and Eve. This is a supposed narrative of events beginning with Adam and Eve and their ejection from the garden of Eden. I have really enjoyed it because it has opened my eyes to things I had never thought about before. Even if it is not canon, it is always nice to be able to further open your perspective. Plus, fabricated or not, this was the history that Israelites believed at one point in time. I love extra biblical sources because it helps me understand the Israelites better. And then there are books like Enoch and Jasher, that are actually mentioned in the scriptures and probably hold a lot of truth. The great thing is that none of these extra-biblical books have contradicted what is found in the bible. They just offer more background to life at the time. They give you more understanding. When Adam and Eve got kicked out of Eden, it felt like a literal gut punch to me. It was crazy to actually feel a physical feeling. Sometimes I would get f...

I haven't been paying attention to the news for over a week because I've been doing way too much reading about and watching youtube videos on Tartaria, the serpent seed doctrine, the millennial reign, and timeline resets. These are all topics I've looked at years ago, some more in depth than others, but I seem to have forgotten about them for the past two years.  I decided I needed to take a break last night from researching. My brain was hurting and I was so tired from being mentally drained. Not to mention the eye strain of reading stuff off a laptop. Our eyes weren't made for that. I was scrolling through reddit this morning (like that is any better for me) and had a few thoughts.  I don't know the original source of this, I just saw it posted on reddit. This is how you will 'own nothing and be happy,' This flyer doesn't mention how digital money will also have an 'expiration date,' but I guess that could be the 'no saving for a rainy day...

Happy National Day or Mourning. The days seem to go by so quickly for me, although there seem to be so many hours in each day now, especially since I am usually awake by 4 am. Since my brain is mostly working these days I've been able to catch up on my bible reading each morning as well as dive into some new topics and ideas before everyone else wakes up. I have read through the bible every year for the past 8 years and this is the first year that I don't know if I will finish it. Pre-covid I would read 30-45 minutes each morning, but this past year my focus has been so bad that I was happy if I could read a single chapter. With the LDN I seem to be able to read for 30 minutes most mornings. It's just me and Sheldon each morning. Sheldon who snores like a human. Sheldon who smells like doritos. Sheldon who tries to take over my heat blanket. Even Frankie joins in on the heat blanket action some mornings, but most of the time she just wants to go outside at 4:30 am. My life ...

One month of LDN and it has been life changing for me. Maybe not in ways that are noticeable to an outside observer (although I highly doubt anyone is observing me,) but in ways that are making an impact on my mind and body. I have been virtually pain-free for a month. I haven't had any problems with my trigeminal nerve, which feels like a miracle, and I didn't even get my PMS 'warning' headache that I get every single month a few days before my period. The only pain I've felt has been period aches, and yesterday was the first time in a month that I had to take ibuprofen.  My brain continues to feel like a dark spot has been lit back up. I can definitely concentrate reading longer than my previous paragraph or two, although if I do try to focus on a new idea for too long my brain just shuts down and I suddenly get incredibly sleepy.  Speaking of sleep, aside from those times my brain shuts down, I haven't felt the need to take any afternoon naps. I'm not jum...

I watched  Died Suddenly  last night while I was prepping dinner, and then I watched it   napped while Peppy watched it after the kids went to bed. It is barely over an hour long and begins with a great primer on eugenics and population control, as well as an explanation on how the citizens of the United States have basically just been brainwashed experiments since the the invention of media.  They talk to embalmers and whistleblowers, and even regular people who were staunch supporters of the covid vaccine until they realized that lots of things just weren't adding up.  The implications of this documentary are terrifying, and my mind is still blown that people are continuing to take this vaccine when we have so much *SCIENCE* to back up the fact that this is all mumbo jumbo. It has all been a lie, a huge deception, every last one of us had been deceived by something. I know some people want to live in a cloud of denial, but wake up, because the more people...

I don't use twitter, but I do know that Elon Musk is the 'chief twit,' which also means the head fool. Musk is a big man troll and I am always surprised (and yet not surprised) at how certain groups of society gather to particular people, almost like a spell has been cast. It is astounding to me that part of the christian community flocks to Musk when he is a staunch supporter of both transhumanism and the NWO. I feel like many christians aren't opening up their bibles, or are reading devotionals written by other men instead of asking the Holy Spirit for guidance and reading the scriptures on your own.  This morning the top post on r/conspiracy was that Elon Musk had reinstated Donald Trump's twitter account. My brain immediately jumped to Revelation 13:3 about one of the heads of the beast having a mortal wound, but it was healed and the world marvelled as they 'followed him.' I understand that my brain is going to make connections that aren't really th...

Wednesday was Owsley's 12th birthday and I thought I'd post about it so that I wouldn't forget. Owsley is kind of like me in the fact that we don't like a big to-do for our birthdays. (Although this never works out for me because my love for my mom overrides how I feel about my own birthday, so I let her decorate away.) Since Owsley was a toddler he regularly asked to not have a big birthday party, but we always had at least the grandparents over because we didn't want there to be any hurt feelings. Gage, on the other hand, loved a huge party and often lamented at bedtime on his birthday that it would be another year before he was "treated like a king."  This year it was just the four of us. Owsley wanted Chickfila for lunch and then we went to Dave and Busters. I let him have my point too, and he got this really cool moon lamp and a drone that actually works well. He was playing with that off the back deck for a majority of the day yesterday. All he wante...

  Don't forget, Musk goes hand-in-hand with the agenda of the NWO.  *A young  cryptocurrency  pioneer tweeted that people were trying to kill him, and he ended up dead the very next day.  *Could the  fallen angels  be trapped in Antarctica? I don't know, but something is going on there. *Nevada voted on a law that will make it illegal to question  transgenderism , even in children. *Lab grown  blood  is given to humans in the first clinical trial. Scripture says "the power is in the blood," so this one is really weird to me. I am almost at the point where I agree with Seventh Day Adventists that we shouldn't be doing blood transfusions. "But Deanna! God gave us the brains to be able to do these things!" Did he really? Our brains tell us to do lots of things that do not align with God's will. We need to be careful to really discern what is God's will verses what we just want to do. *The pandemic relief fraud has congress eyeing  digi...

Yesterday I learned that the US is one of the last places still banning all foreign travelers who haven't been covid vaccinated, yet the unvaccinated citizens can freely leave the states and return. So let's see, we've basically outsourced most of our materials and goods from other countries, which has turned out to be a disaster, and now we are limiting the foreign visitors that can help support our economic infrastructure. Well done, guys. Well done. Clearly everything is going according to plan.  *The founder of the Oculus has created a  VR game  that makes your head explode in real life whenever you die in the game. What could possibly go wrong?  *Looking to blame anything except the vaccines, now hand sanitizers are causing  cancer . * Bill Clinton  jokes about his involvement with Jeffrey Epstein. *Sean Penn gives  President Zelensky  his Oscar statue, I guess because Zelensky is a good  entertainer . If you have ever been on the fence...

I woke up around 4:30 this morning and right as I got out of bed Peppy's phone got an incoming call from his dad. His dad and stepmom are currently in Germany visiting her family, so getting a call before 5 am here (it was 11 am there) immediately made us think there might have been an accident. Peppy answered the phone and we could hear a voice in the background saying, "Hello? Hello?" Peppy replied back but the person couldn't hear him. The caller hung up and called back. "Hello......Hello?" "Hello?" A voice with a thick Jamaican accent said, "I have Brian and I'm going to kill them all." "What?"  "You heard me. I have your dad and I am going to kill him. I'm just trying to make it home and I need $600." "Who do you have?" "YOU KNOW WHAT I SAID. I SAID I HAVE YOUR FATHER." By this point the red flags were flying left and right. Gage watches enough scam videos (where the scammers get scamme...

MAGA is such a gigantic lie because the "greatness" of America is a lie. The natives were raped and murdered and then a false form of Christianity founded America as we know it. Our founding fathers wanted freedom of religion all right, but it wasn't a Christ centered religion. They wanted a place where they would be free to worship Lucifer and participate in occultic activities. Maybe they said all the right words and did all the right things, but a glitter covered turd is still a turd.  Washington DC  at its core is an occultic hub. As much as I don't support Joe Biden, I have been glad that Donald Trump's name hasn't been everywhere the past few years. It was a nice break when all the Q anon people hibernated for a while, but I knew they'd be back. People like Trump don't just go away quietly. Gigantic man babies with a power complex tend to be hard to kill. (Not literally. I'm not planning on killing anyone.) And now that he's creeping back...

Yesterday it rained all day, but then at sunset the clouds began to disappear. I knew the camera on my phone would never do it justice, but it still turned out nice. One side of the sky looked like it was on fire, but as you panned towards the east it looked like cotton candy. The time also changed in the middle of the night, causing me to wake up before 4 am this morning, and because I am night blind, I guess driving after 5 pm will be halted until the spring. Good thing I'm a homebody and I hate driving anyway.  This morning's stream of consciousness will probably make me sound crazier than I really am. It is ok. Look around you, basically every single person is crazy right now, some of them just don't acknowledge it. At least my crazy is the safe, non-violent sort.  What if Christ was actually born on the day we consider Halloween? Why is it called "Holy-ween?" What is holy about witches and devils? I'd say that is the direct opposite of something holy. I h...

Peppy took this picture at Six Flags. Too bad many of the people who hate Biden still seem to think Trump is an American hero.  *Believer in lizard people,  David Icke , has been banned from 26 European countries. He has been saying the same stuff for years, so I don't understand why he is suddenly being banned.  * Twitter  to start charging $8 a month for the blue verification check mark. *Does Elon Musk's baphomet warrior  Halloween costume  mean anything? I don't know, but mark my words that this guy is not to be trusted.  *The history of human  sacrifice . *Russian troops are eating  zoo animals  to stay alive on Ukraine frontline. *Kanye claims he's been  MK Ultra-ed . What celebrity hasn't been mind controlled to some extent?  *Picking your nose can increase your chance of  dementia related diseases . What about rapid tests? Surely that could increase the risk if a finger can. *Someone wrote a book claiming  Tru...

Obviously this picture has nothing to do with my post. They only look at me in tandem like that when they think I'm cutting up chicken.  I don't necessarily understand the pharmacology behind how LDN works. I failed chemistry back in high school. I was an A and B student and this was the only class I ever failed....with a 33. Some things my brain has never been able to wrap itself around, like chemistry, calculus or playing pool. I know that LDN reduces inflammation and increases your endorphin levels. It is also supposed to increase dopamine and brain response in the amalgada. Whatever else naltrexone is doing to my brain is working. For the most part, my brain fog has been completely lifted over the last three or four days. I'm not sure if my short term memory has gotten better, but it does seem like a veil has been lifted off my brain. Those first few days I could physically feel something happening in my brain. It went from being black to having a spotline shown on the ...