the end is the beginning

Our hearts and minds were not created for this constant barrage of propaganda and fear mongering. Fact: We have always had wars. Also fact: We have never had a time in history where 'news' was in our faces 24/7. Do you know how the people who were not fighting made it through WW2 without going crazy? Well, for one their news wasn't delivered all day, every day. They only heard the important news. They weren't sitting at a screen all day every day, trying to get up to date news in real time. They probably tried to keep their minds occupied and their hands busy, instead of the constant overstimulation of emotional abuse. This is enough to drive even the most stable person crazy.  The past two years have desensitized us so much. Our bodies and minds have been through so much shock and trauma. It is a wonder that any of us can even function anymore.  We were going about our normal lives when Covid 19 hit. We were told we needed to take extreme measures for two weeks to flat...

I had an epiphany last night. Maybe the first one I've had in fourteen months. It was this whole psychological thing that used to happen to me all the time, only it hasn't happened since I had covid round one. I used to explore the depths of my mind all the time. Digging into traumas and making the connection as to why I respond and react in certain ways was one of my favorite pastimes, although that is a part of my brain I don't really have access to anymore.  It was like I was able to separate my body from my soul. I could make the clear distinction between what is my earthly body that is falling apart vs the part of me that will continue forever. I honestly felt grounded for the first time in I don't know how long. I usually feel like I am floating and not connected to reality at all. This morning the fog is back, but I still remember how it felt last night. It was like I finally understood that I am still the same person that I was pre-covid, even if that feels like...

  I was in the 5th grade. Me and my older brother used to spend the night at my grandparents' house every weekend and go to the flea market on Saturday morning. My granddaddy would give us each $5, telling us "don't spend it all in one place." Well, in 1995 five dollars could buy a 10 year old a handful of neat stuff at the flea market. So we were always excited. Jonathan and I anxiously waited on the couch for Grandmother to finish getting ready. Jonathan had borrowed a cd from one of his classmates and we were listening to it. He didn't care for it too much (he preferred bands like Boys2Men,) but from the instant I heard the words  'Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage' , I was hooked. This band was awesome. My 11th birthday was a few months later and I happily spent $24.98 on the 2 disc set. My mother was leery. Who was this strange band that her little girl was suddenly enthralled with? She informed me that I needed to bring the lyrics b...

I don't think I have spoken about Russia and Ukraine at all. I'm not even sure if I have ever included any information about them in any of my link posts either. The truth is that I am not qualified to talk about that. (Am I really qualified to talk about anything though?) I really don't have enough information or a past history of the dynamics between Russia and Ukraine. It is really hard to find the unbaised truth about anything. I don't know anything about Putin's history either, although for years every time I would see a picture of him I would get a skeezy feeling. Although I will say he is a much more eloquent speaker than President Biden. It doesn't take that much. Sometimes I wonder if he was the covid brain fog test dummy. Hitler was also known for his great speeches. Moses was not.  I told Peppy that there are some people and situations I feel like I naturally gravitate to, and some things that I don't feel as drawn to, and this has been one of tho...

source *I booked our trip to Universal yesterday. I waited too long and all of the cheaper rooms at Portofino were booked and only Club Level ($100 more per night) was available. At first I was angry because when will I ever learn not to procrastinate? Of all of my old traits that have lingered since my covid personality change, why, oh why, did this one have to stick around? Ugh. I hate it. Back in school I did my best work under pressure. I know I am a procrastinator at my core and that is ok. But when it affects my family and those around me, I hate it. Anyway, we are trying a different *fancy* resort this time. And while we all were excited go back to Portofino, it will be cool to experience another luxury hotel, because that is not something we generally do. Instead of Italy, this time we head to Indonesia! You know, as long as life continues until May. We've all learned that things can change in the blink of an eye.  One of our favorite rides, The Mummy, will be down for refu...

Every aspect of our modern society is designed to push us further from God. Most of us were born in a sterile and cold delivery room. Our births were probably traumatizing in a subconscious way that we don't even understand, and then the moment we make our exit (or entrance, whatever) we are immediately given immunizations and many of us start our lives with lab made formula instead of natural breastmilk. I'm not ripping on formula babies. There are many mothers who cannot produce adequate breast milk, not to mention the plethora of personal reasons that a mother may choose not to breastfeed. I'm just stating a fact- formula is not natural. They can make it as close as possible, kind of like impossible meat, but it is still not the real thing.  Many babies are whisked away for newborn stats and tests, when the family should be spending lots of time together. Those first moments are crucial. That oxytocin is supposed to be flowing from mother and baby, creating those lifetim...

For six years I would naturally wake up around 5 am and start my morning with prayer and almost an hour digging into the scriptures. I also participated in daily devotionals with a friend on YouVersion and audited some classes at a preaching school. In those six years I read through the entire bible seven times and read the book of Revelation probably 20 times, including reading it aloud once, because you are promised a blessing if you read that book aloud. ("Blessed is the one who reads aloud the words of this prophecy." Revelation 1:3) It was always easy for me to focus and pray. And then I got covid and it ate my brain. I still naturally wake up at 5 or a little before, but my prayer life and scripture reading ability have taken a major blow. Sometimes I sit and all I can think is "Lord, you know what I need. Give me the grace to rest in your peace," because that is literally all that I can think. It feels personal that I have lost that feeling of connection to t...

*The  CDC  quietly changes the guidelines for children's age specific speech expectations. You can't tell me there weren't people behind the scenes questioning what two years of masking and social distancing would do to children. If I was  questioning  it over a year ago, then there were definitely experts in the field who had the foresight to see this would be a problem.  *We are all being psychologically played to a certain degree. Most of us are constantly being intentionally provoked. Fight back by not being  offended . I don't know why, but I've never been a person that gets offended. I definitely have character flaws, but being offended is not one of them. I just don't understand the point.  *In news that you cannot even make up, the NHS recruits  sheep  to help calm children that are getting vaccinated.  *Can Ottawa  euthanize  the pets of protesting truckers? Technically, yes. If the protestors are arrested and cannot p...

I wanted to call this 'perks of brain damage,' but I thought that was a little insensitive. Sometimes it is easy to focus on what I have lost due to covid- my vision, my emotions, my memories, my ability to concentrate, some of my intellect, etc. But there are also some definite positives. 1. I can handle high stress situations because nothing makes my heart race and nothing causes me anxiety anymore. It makes me feel like a superhero. Yesterday at the food bank one of the volunteers told me, "I like working with you, Deanna, because you calm me down! You are a very relaxed person." That was a nice thing to hear. 2. I am not concerned in the slightest about the fact that I'm not getting any younger. I see the gray hairs pop up, the new wrinkles forming, my 'lady' stomach starting to pooch. And I don't care at all. It is what it is. I have a feeling not everyone is so laissez faire about the aging process. I still feel like a 'girl,' but I am de...

My cat might think she is a human baby. I had to buy her a different bag of food this week and she is legitimately protesting. I never thought an animal would become a food snob over a $4 bag of Meow Mix, but that is what she wants. My brother's cat is also addicted to Meow Mix, so maybe they put catnip in it or something.  We didn't really tell anyone, but we all had Omicron over a month ago. We probably would have never even known if Peppy hadn't taken a rapid test to go to a concert. (With the amount of rapid tests that he's taken, I basically consider Peppy vaccinated at this point. I feel bad for anyone who has had to regularly take them for school or work, because there is NO WAY these are safe for you. Maybe once is ok, but repeated use in your nasal cavities cannot be good for you. And I am fairly certain that there is something  on these swabs. I have yet to take a nasal test. Peppy has bought us tickets for a bunch of concerts this summer, so I might end up ha...

Canadian Prime Minister Justin Trudeau has taken an unprecedented measure invoking the  Emergencies Act in an effort to crackdown on anti-vaxx protesters. Since there are no need for court orders, banks can freeze personal accounts of anyone who is connected to the protests. This is not surprising for anyone that has been paying attention, but it is still extremely disturbing.  Trudeau claims this is about keeping Canadians safe, but this is nothing more than a power move.  The Deputy PM said on Monday that banks would be able to freeze personal accounts of anyone linked with the protest without needing a court order. Vehicle insurance of anyone associated with the demonstrations could also be suspended. Information for 92,000 protest donors was leaked yesterday. Because we've given away so much of our private information over the years, it will be so easy for banks to track these people down, seize their assets, and close their accounts. Banks are not safe at all, and t...

source I've never really given much thought to the pagan origins of Valentine's Day. To be honest with you, I kind of always thought it was a commercialized holiday that the card and chocolate companies jumped on. Of all the holidays, I've always thought this one was the dumbest. But to each their own. Some people are hopeless romantics. That is not really me.  If you were ever taught anything about Valentine's Day, you probably learned that it was named after Saint Valentine. The legend is that St. Valentine was a Roman priest who would perform marriages in secret. Emperor Claudius had declared that men were better soldiers if they were unwed, so marriage was forbidden in young men.  But lets go deeper.... According to legend, King Amulius ordered his twin nephews, Romulus and Remus, to be thrown into the river as punishment for their mother's broken vow of celibacy. A servant felt sorry for the twins and placed them in a basket. The river god carried the basket do...

Is Putin a time traveler or a vampire? No, I don't think so. But these types of posts always make me laugh. There's another one comparing Obama to an ancient Egyptian pharaoh. There are quite a few similarities, but when you consider the billions of people that have ever existed, surely some of the facial features will have to be repeated. Either that, or clones. Or reptilian shapeshifters. Obviously there is no other excuse.  I'm posting two of these in a row because I've almost collected twenty links in my inbox from just the past three days. Since I don't have social media other than reddit I don't really know what is trending and viral among the people of the world. I have a friend who has bombarded me with information about the trucker convoy in America that is supposed to begin at the start of March. So that will give you a few weeks if you need to stock up on your essentials and hardcore wants. Stocking up is a good idea anyway, with the way inflation has...

*It appears that the stage is being set for heart attacks and strokes to seem...normal. Covid survivors are 63% more likely to have a heart attack  within a year than someone who hasn't had to virus. I've seen articles claiming shoveling snow will give you a heart attack. Now it is  high electric bills  and  having sex . Your best bet is to forego all real life activities and live your remaining days in the Metaverse. *Putin refers to the  metaverse  as a "den of elite pedophiles." Has anyone noticed that metaverse and neuralink both have very similar logos that look like the infinity sign? *Invisible four foot barriers to deter groping will separate people in the  metaverse . I cannot even make this stuff up.  *Come one, come all! The Biden administration is handing out  crack kits . If you've ever daydreamed about smoking crack but didn't know how to begin, now is your chance to shine.  *Homeland Security will begin to crackdown on any...

.....and everyone is dead from AIDS. Fact checkers everywhere will immediately tell you that neither covid nor the vaccines will cause HIV/AIDS, and I surely hope those fact checkers are actually factual this time. I've had the thought that covid could possibly be airborne HIV for almost  two years now  when some leaked documents suggested that coronavirus had been spliced with HIV.  In the beginning the covid narrative was telling us it could take up to ten days after exposure of coronavirus to show symptoms. This is similar to the onset of HIV. The first symptoms of HIV are also pretty similar to covid: fever, sore throat, headache, flu-like symptoms, fatigue, shingles, and pneumonia.  After the initial onset of HIV there is an asymptomatic period. While there are no obvious symptoms, the virus keeps multiplying in the body and weakening the immune system.  Chinese doctors have reported that the autoposies of coronavirus patients indicate something that looks ...

Frankie exudes all the elegance and grace of a mountain goat. *I have been thinking about technology and how it has increased so much during the last hundreds years. It was like electricity was 'invented' and then suddenly knowledge was exploding in leaps and bounds. It seems weird to me that it took so long to discover  electricity, and it makes me question how much of the history we are taught is true and how many resets we may have already had in the past. I don't believe the narrative we are given about the middle ages. I've done lots of reading up on Tartaria and the mud floods and I do believe what we think is our actual history is false. There is something secret in the world's fair narrative, something big that someone went to great lengths to cover up. I often wonder about hidden technologies that were common knowledge in the past and have now become esoteric. I don't believe people were less civilized in the past. In fact, I might argue that they were ...

I mean, I don't know if Castro is really Justin Trudeau's biological father, but uhh, they do look very, very similar. Here's some more  information  and comparison pictures to back that idea. *A highly virulent variant of  HIV  has been found in the Netherlands. Great timing, considering  Moderna  just began trials for an mRNA HIV vaccine.  *Gender-neutral pronoun  'hen'  to be added to Norwegian dictionaries.  *Insect-sized  micro-robots  with wings could replace bees. *Study from  John Hopkins  shows that lockdowns have had little to no public health effects, and instead have destroyed the economy. Coincidence? Nah. Absolutely intentional.  *Spotify to add a  content advisory warning  to any podcast that discusses covid.  *Twenty-four  monkeys  were found dead on the side of the road in India.  * The Hershey Company  have begun firing unvaccinated employees. Guess it is ...

With all the distractions going on, it is easy to forget that the World Economic Forum is still planning for  'The Great Reset'  behind the scenes. They are scheduled to hold their next big conference in  May . Yesterday I listened to the video below while I was cleaning. Anyone with children needs to listen to this. This is not some wacky conspiracy, this is reality. It really puts into perspective what it could mean for the future as we head towards a world that runs on cryptocurrency. It also enforces the idea that they are coming after the children. They don't care about the adults that are already set in their ways. We are disposable. They want the young ones that they can mold into the society that they want. A society that doesn't want to work, and prefers to sit and do nothing while being paid a universal basic income. I realize there are exceptions to the rule, but as a whole I firmly believe this is what they are trying to do to young people. Break them down, ...

I have never believed everything happens for a reason. Because we live in a fallen world, bad stuff happens to both good and bad people. I cringe when a child dies and someone says, "God needed another angel in heaven." Nope. Or when someone says, "Why is God letting this happen to ME?" Seriously? Who do you think you are? If God constantly intervened in the bad things that happened, the whole concept behind free will would be void. We also need to remember that many times the bad things that happen to us are a result of our own bad decisions. We reap what we sow, and blaming the Lord for that is ignorant. Sometimes before we can learn from our mistakes and move on, we first have to admit that we are the root of many of our problems. (This is not always the case though. Like I said, bad things happen to everyone. It is just a result of living in a fallen world that is under Satan's influence.) Free will is not an illusion, but control is.  There is a difference...