the end is the beginning

It looks weird not having anything else in the body of this post, but I don't have anything to add other than like "truth" or "for real, for real." But neither of those really add much to this video, nor do they bear the weight of the seriousness of this issue.  It's coming out though. 

I know I told you that I didn't believe there was any correlation between a prophesied three days of darkness and the eclipse, and I still don't think that. But after I read some more, I do understand that some areas in the path of totality may experience grid failures, although I do not believe this is some nationwide THREE DAYS OF DARKNESS. (I could be wrong. I could always be wrong. I am mere dust and microplastics. It just feels a little too "1999 AHHH THE COMPUTERS ARE ALL RESETTING AT MIDNIGHT!" Not to mention there being zero biblical prophecy in this.)  All that nothingness being said, there are a couple weird things that will be going on at the same time as the eclipse that need to be acknowledged.  CERN has grand plans to restart their  Large Haldon Collider again on April 8th. If you are unfamiliar with  CERN , they basically just like to smash up particles and try to open up black holes "just because." They have a huge statue of Shiva the Destro...

* P. Diddy's  home is raided as part of a sex trafficking probe. So weird how all Trump's acquaintances are terrible, but he's still so righteous. Must be tough for him. *Oof, and speaking of Swamp King himself, in an act that would make Jesus flip tables,  Trump is grifting $60 "God Bless the USA" bibles for Ishtar's Fertility Festival  Easter. So odd that my Chromebook doesn't acknowledge the word 'graphene,' but it is cool with Ishtar. Anyone remember when he couldn't even name a single verse from his favorite book ? Or when he claimed that he's never asked for forgiveness because he's never done anything he needed forgiveness for?  *Maryland  bridge  collapses after being hit by a cargo ship, with closures already expected to last until December 2025. Shortly after the AT&T outage a month ago, people were getting these random texts that had characters that appeared Chinese and always referenced a bridge.  Minutes of Horror  is ...

Some mornings I wake up and my first conscious thought is "welcome to the prison of nothingness of the rest of your life." Mental illness is obviously no stranger to me, but adding a layer of nothingness is such a weird limbo. I couldn't even focus to read in Genesis this morning. Adam and Eve. This is basic cradle roll stuff and I could not even read it. The last time I woke up with nothing-brain was three weeks ago. Too soon. Too soon! Zero signals in my brain with executive functioning. Feels like cement in my forehead. It can be hard to be motivated to do basically anything when I can't feel the signals my brain might be sending out.  Bing Creator might have brain fog. I think today my brain landed on either hal-forking or bald c'n. My brain is like a spinning wheel of random options of what will and won't function correctly on any given day. I prefer the days it lands on "not conscious of the idea that she will never feel physical joy for the rest of...

Peppy's dad is staying with us this coming weekend so that he and Peppy can go to a concert Saturday night. Every time I thought about it over the last month or so I would start feeling that creeping anxiety that I feel every time he invites himself over. I wish open house hospitality came more naturally to me. It really bothers me at times, because I know I try my hardest to be a loving person to everyone. I don't want to blame it all on mental and personality problems, but four day visits really do drain me mentally and physically. A lot of it has to do with just how different our lines of thinking are. He will interpret a facial expression or something I say in a completely different way than I intended it. So most of the time I just listen and nod, because that makes everything easier. I'll just mask on the outside and be the person you'll never know on the inside.  I'm not going to say anything else negative or critical, because those are the things about his v...

I've been reading  this paper on pre-existence. I have never really given it much thought because of my lifetime whiny internal voice that has repeatedly said, "I never asked to exist." Based on all the texts I've been reading that were supposedly written by friends of Yahuah, I have come to the conclusion that all the souls that were to ever exist were created at the beginning of creation. I mean, it is in scripture everywhere and I'm not sure why anyone would refute it, although plenty do.  Jeremiah 1:5 should really clear up preexistence or not: "Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you." Or Psalm 139:15-16  "My frame was not hidden from you when I was made secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance. In your book were written, everyone of them, the days that were formed for me, when yet there were none." Romans 8:29 "For those whom he knew, he predestined to be conformed to the image of...

* Devil's comet  can be seen in the sky for the rest of March and potentially during the April 8th solar eclipse. Remember friends, over here we understand sky anomalies are harbingers of.....something. We just don't know what.  *Tesla's  Cybertruck  that was claimed to be bulletproof and unbreakable is actually easily destructible. Elon Musk is not really known for telling the truth.  *Company can now transform  cultivated cells  into sausage in four days. This is so weird to me. I do not want to eat petri dish meat. A lot of modern/scientific/medical things seem really wrong and abnormal, but somehow I'm generally the odd one out.  *First human (that we know of) with  Neuralink  can play video games with his mind. * Vietnam  faces 3 billion dollars in annual crop losses due to rising saltwater levels. *Australian  principals  armed with machetes and knives as school violence soars.  *Satellite images of only one yea...

I don't know how much longer this blog will be here. Bots from all over the world have been scouring my blog 24/7 for the last week. I know I am a nobody blogger, but if the TikTok bill passes, that will eventually trickle down all over the internet. I don't even know the words and phrases you can and cannot say online anymore, but I'm sure I use many of them. I don't even know what cryptic words you use to get around the offending buzzwords. The articles that I have seen basically say any website or online media that is considered dangerous will be removed. The big things listed were antivaxxers, preppers, terrorists, anyone against the government, and MAGA enthusiasts. And while I am the most physically passive person you will ever meet, and I would be the least likely person to ever start a rebellion....it's the words, man. They have to control the words. 5 monthly readers, or 5 million, the bots are trained to find the words and take them down. They might only s...

About ten years ago I came to the understanding that I didn't believe dinosaurs were real. The dinosaur narrative was definitely not real. That word didn't even exist until the 1800s, you know, when they decided to lie to us about everything after the last reset. With all the biblical references to dragons it was easy for me to resign in my mind that they did exist. I just didn't really give it much thought. It is not hard for me to swap out the two in my mind. If I could believe dinosaurs existed, I could just so easily believe they were dragons instead. Ancient cultures depict dragons. I'm not sure about any ancient depiction of a T-rex. I just didn't do much imagining as to what that might actually be like. As I was reading in 2 Esdras this passage stood out to me. "Where the nations of the dragons of Arabia shall come out with many chariots, and the multitude of them shall be carried as the wind upon earth, that all they which hear them may fear and trembl...

I got offered a job at the food bank. We haven't had a board president in almost a year, and our new (paid) director has been taking on many of the duties of the president, director and office manager. She met with the board early this week and suggested a part-time paid position to help her with the day-to-day duties. When she suggested me they all unanimously said that I would be great for that.  I have actually been praying about a job the last couple of days, so this timing seems a little perfect. I know all the people. I have been there over seven years and know that place inside and out. My one concern are the other volunteers. I know some of them did not approve of having our first paid staff member, and I don't want them getting upset that there would be another paid person. The director and I work really well together, and she is always asking me my input. She asks all of us our opinions, which is not something we have been used to the last few years. I would not mind ...

Daylight savings time makes me so happy. Last night I looked at the clock at 7:08 pm and the sun was just setting. Pretty soon all the trees are going to be thick and green. My allergies don't always agree with this time of year, but it certainly looks nicer outside when everything is in bloom. Post-covid Deanna has way less allergies than pre-covid Deanna did, so that is a small perk of whatever it did to my brain/body. Not being allergic to Frankie is seriously a blessing. I love that cat. Between me and Owsley, I thought we'd never have an indoor cat.  Since it has been dark later in the mornings now, the last two mornings I have gone outside around 5 am and looked at the stars. It always seems like there are so many less than there were when I was a kid. I can't blame it on street lights, because it is very dark here. Maybe pollution and chemtrails have just muddied the whole sky up 24/7. It was very cloudy on Friday and I was sitting outside. As soon as the sun burst t...

Both Frankie and Sheldon were sitting with me. Frankie was literally right next to me on the couch and Sheldon was on the floor below us. I was reading a post about Melania Trump potentially being a mail-order bride, and I clicked on a YouTube link that opened with Donald Trump speaking. Immediately Frankie got up and moved as far away as she could from me on the couch, and at the same time Sheldon actually got up and went into another room.  Is this real? I don't know. But the fact that both of my pets immediately scattered at the sound of Donald Trump's voice is real. I actually wish that someone else would have been awake and out here to witness their instant repulsion to his voice. The innocent-brained are generally decent judges of character.  *Gaza becomes testing ground for US-made  AI war robots *Worms near  Chernobyl  have become immune to radiation. * NASA  preparing for internet apocalypse that could hit by 2025. *Billionaires are buckling down w...

Do you know what true repentance is? It certainly isn't putting all your faith in yourself and trying your hardest to cut out that vice/sin/bad habit in your life. That might work out for a little while if you can discipline yourself, but it will never last, and you'll find yourself deeper in sin than before. True repentance is admitting you can't do this alone, and crying out to God for help trying to understand why you even participate in that particular act anyway. It is recognizing the root of your problem and flat out being disgusted with yourself for your actions. It is banging your fists on your chest in anguish because it hurts you so much to do the things that upset the Lord. It is acknowledging that this will be a constant fight between your spirit and your flesh, and knowing that as long as you are in the Lord's hands, you will be ok. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. The spirit wants you to meditate on the eternal. It wants you to die to yourself...

I think I have a really good idea of how my brain works now. Because the first thing I do after I wake up is make a cup of coffee and pray, I am generally pretty aware of what is or isn't in my brain on any given day. When I woke up on Tuesday I went to pray and couldn't. Sometimes there's free flowing consciousness up there, and sometimes there's nada. Tuesday was my niece's tenth birthday and we all got together for pizza and cake that evening. My younger brother (my longhaul twin) said, "I woke up this morning and immediately said to Kaitlin, 'There's nothing in my brain.'" Twinsies! Here is evidence #85754 that we are all losing our minds. Trivial evidence, but I laughed so hard when my niece burst out laughing because Granna had written this in her card: I am only laughing because I proofread my posts before I post them, and I still leave tons of incorrect unnoticed stuff. In my previous life, people would ask me to proofread stuff all the...

**With all these posts I surely hope no one is just taking my word for anything. My conclusions come from ten years of praying and reading. I suggest you work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.  According to ancient legends and myths, as well as the book of Adam and Eve, after they were kicked out the garden, God also kicked Satan to India...which is super interesting because India is supposedly where ancient technology reigned. Flying machines, tablets/phones, all sorts of modern technologies, except most everything was gold plated instead of covered in plastic like it is today. After Adam and Eve were booted from the garden, they lived on top of a mountain in a cave. After Cain kills Able, he is kicked off the mountain. Down below, evil influences are basically working on enticing all the senses, the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, the pride of life. Throughout the generations, the family of Adam and Eve are slowly seduced down the mountain by sounds of part...

*"The strange shadow in the fire." If you skip to about the 48 second mark on this video, you will see a giant human shaped creature waving and walking around in the fire. This was recorded a few weeks ago during the wildfires in Chili.                             *The Texas  wildfires  are the second largest in US history. * Snowstorm  in California could potentially bring in 10 feet of snow.  190 mph winds  are being reported. * Facial recognition gone wrong results in the arrest of an innocent man in a Sunglasses Hut robbery. The man that was arrested was actually 2,000 miles away when the robbery happened. This resulted in an innocent man being assaulted and gang raped in prison. This is absolutely disgusting. Is this the future we have to look forward to?  *Winter  heat wave  is happening in portions of the US. It was in the low 70s earlier this week. *Users say that...